Dear Diary
There have been good and bad and ugly parts of you. Many times you reach a time and space where you understand what all you carry.
There are some episodes which stand out more than others.
But What is this life and What is the purpose? Since 2015 I have been on this quest. I read and was always directed to somewhere higher. I know that Life as I know is a journey. When you see your little one thrive, come what may, you understand that Life is just about perception. The perception is yours only. How do you perceive a person , a thing, a situation.
Ego: Your Friend
Are you acting our yourself or from your Ego. What did you feel wrong about a particular situation? Your Ego is built to protect you. its your best friend and cushion. So it asks questions like "How could he say that to me" or " What does she think she is, demanding this from me?" But if you let your best friend know" I am ok. I will take care of this" in place, this friend will assist you by walking through the process of Action. Using this Ego for higher Good is the Goal. So now when I come to an "irritating" people or situations I silence this friend, and don't let it ask pointless questions and ask "Ok. What's the plan now!"
The time for the inner dialogue will not come through the normal hustles and bustles. You need to find your quiet time where you just quieten the waves of your mind and then the answers will start appearing with much more clarity.
If I have understood one thing about myself it is that I need the quiet times to avoid burnout. In any of my work, house work, playing with kids, teaching them or spending time with husband or working in my career or doing surgeries I perform better when I am happier. Happier doesn't mean that I will be Blissful throughout the year. Happier just means that whatever the situation I have spend sometime everyday to self reflect and quieten to achieve my highest potential for that day.
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| A now usual Date with myself and my thoughts |
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| Couple Time with hubby in our scrubs |
When things go wrong as they sometimes will, Stop, bend your head to the supreme Power. Ask your questions to the Almighty and learn the lesson within. This can be a patient who shouted, a recipe that went bad, your child acting out a certain way or a surgery complications. Do not instantly Ask Questions because we know that the muddled mind just gives the wrong answers. It will only tell you, " You are silly", "You are not good enough" ," You are not meant to be". Instead just ask forgiveness from the Supreme and listen for the guidance in the next few hours.
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| Supreme Power: it is formless, shapeless but nevertheless IT Exists |
Another lesson learnt is Do not take any Big Decisions in Highs or Lows. So extreme states make you take extreme decisions. Impulses like " Quit this Job" "Delete that Friend from your Contact list" "Leave a relationship" " Hit your child" Has to be stopped. Impulses do more harm than good. In urge of these impulses, write it down somewhere and just leave it. After 2 days, when things have gone quieter, revisit that page, if it still makes sense, go ahead and think over it. If it does not make sense: Just tear that page and burn it, because you do not want the Universe to listen.
Gratitude:
Seeing through the Prism of Gratitude changes perspectives. When you feel " Why do I have to get up" "Why do I have to exercise" "Why cant I oversleep through the day" "Why cant the kids quiet down?", Seeing from a point of gratitude makes you think "Thank you for the work" "Thank you for the ability to Exercise" "Thank you for my breath" "Thank you for the opportunity to give my kids a roof over the head and a peaceful sleep" "Thank you for the activity and intelligence of my kids" Gratitude brings more to be grateful for.
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| Gratitude |
Your Gifts
My gifts are writing and communicating. My husbands' are being patient and forgiving. My father in laws are being true and honest in everything he does. My Mother in law's are to keep working for the good of the family come what may be the physical situation. Every person's skill set is different. Some talk better, some dress better, some workout better, some document better, some hustle better, some multitask better, some unifocus better. Yours doesn't have to be the clone of others. Throughout the school system we are taught to copy the same, clone the same, do the same and ultimately we are sub texted that we all have to be the same. So when we grow we are disappointed with ourselves by comparing with others. If someone sings we want to sing, if someone dances we want to dance, if someone plays tennis we want to play tennis. Deriving ambition from others is one thing, aping others is another. It will not serve you, as your passions do not lie there.
You will be able to excel in things you are passionate about. And the world needs more Scientists, Mechanics, Salesmen, Bakers, Lawyers, Doctors, Politicians, Nurses and Engineers who are excelling in what they do rather than doing a mediocre job. Even if you are a beautician, do that Pedicure as best as you can. That will fulfil you more than your salary will. Recognize your gifts and seed it, water it, show the sunshine and see the flowers bloom. Remove the weeds Aka things you rather not focus on, to lets these plants grow beautifully.
Life's Flow
